Malaise

I throw my sweater off the table to write some nonsense 

I can't believe the state that I thought we’d never live long enough to create 

It’s hanging outside my periphery like pasts estranged

There are companies all around me

They create the scent you remember when you dress in the morning

Facilitating the emotional response of your heart at peace or soaked after a good race

Hide my face in your breast until I'm breathless

Help the helpless ventilate through skin-to-skin disintegration

I dont like the world we rotate with

It’s captured me in its rythym as I looked the other way 

Some feated place with birds embalmbed and words misshapened 

Dead mice and the cats chase them

I craft a bagel with cheese and a coffee of bad water

I watch carelessly, but I'm too cautious for solace

A paranoid child grown into a skittish novice of many thrones

I walk days now with flaccid interest under sheepish lamp floats

Snow trickles, but it does not grow

I pay for parking like a patient pays for treatment 

Order me a Woodford iced while I leave to the bathroom

I’ll let the mirror read me my diagnostics 

This is a seldom human environment, and we look for our chances to soil it

Crossing over to the dark techno like pyrrichs 

The loss is insignificant in the moment 

It’s more human if we do it and notice

I call everything imaginary anymore 

Only sleeping because my dreams must be worth something 

If only for passive mining 

My data is in the trees, and I watch them no longer 

Finding grace in their age rather

Picking petals from the garden to let them fade somber

We can no longer engineer life without malaise 

And in the stars, the great generations sway like a bag trapped in the sewer gate

We’ve nothing left to latch our feelers on but a cool vibranium plate

The gutter above me leaks waste and bores me to fiction 

I spend my days like the man in the background whistling 

Draping my sweater over my shoulders, I stare into words I wrote for my neighbor 

And I believe the company could sell it for me later 

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